Sunday, August 12, 2012

Standing in Holy Places

"We must be vigilant in a world which has moved so far from that which is spiritual. It is essential that we reject anything that does not conform to our standards, refusing in the process to surrender that which we desire most: eternal life in the kingdom of God. The storms will still beat at our doors from time to time, for they are an inescapable part of our existence in mortality. We, however, will be far better equipped to deal with them, to learn from them, and to overcome them if we have the gospel at our core and the love of the Savior in our hearts."

When I stand in holy places
and am careful of the things I
watch, listen to and participate in,
it's easier for me to feel the Holy Ghost
and I am better able
to weather the "storm" of
depression in my life.
The temple is the only place
where I don't feel depressed
and that's why I go
there so often.
Temples are definitely
holy places.

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Rolling up my Sleeves and Getting to Work

"The Lord’s way is not to sit at the side of the stream and wait for the water to pass before we cross. It is to come together, roll up our sleeves, go to work, and build a bridge or a boat to cross the waters of our challenges."

For the past 8 years
or so I felt like I was
just waiting for this trial to pass.
I was wandering in the wilderness
as it reads in  1 Nephi 17:4,
"And we did sojourn for the space of many years, yea, even eight years in the wilderness."
Lehi's family was "sojourning" but
I definitely just wandered.
I didn't feel like I was making progress or
moving forward in my life.
I sort of just let my depression take over,
wandered about in the "wilderness"
and waited "for the water to pass."

The last year and half
I've been fighting back
and trying to take control
over my own destiny.
I usually can't control whether or not
depressing thoughts come into my mind
but I can control how long I let them stay.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Staying on the Path

A few weeks ago
I felt like I had reached my limit.
I was sooooo tired
of being depressed.
I told my husband,
"One of the hardest
things I face in
 dealing with depression
is that I feel
like I am doing everything right
and yet I'm not happy."

Today I watched a video
(about someone who also deals
with a mental illness)
that echoed what I had said earlier to my husband.
She said,
"It was just so hard for me to understand
why [having a mental illness] happened,
when I was being so faithful
 and trying so hard to do what
 Heavenly Father
wanted me to do."

The challenge is
to keep doing what
I need to do
in order to return to my
Heavenly Father.
I know He is aware of me,
I know He knows how unhappy
I feel at times,
and I know He will send the
comfort and help
that I so desperately

Below is a link to the video I watched.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Seeking after Praiseworthy Things

I love reading about or watching inspiring stories.
It's so uplifting
as I see other people
face obstacles
in their own lives
and overcome them
and then go on to help others.

The following is a story about
a 10 time cancer survivor.
His Attitude
and Faith
are amazing.

The news article on his story reads,
"...he pushes on with faith that
God has a reason for afflicting him.
In fact, Travis says
he believes that he is blessed
to have such a 'visual' trial.
People know that he is sick,
and everyone rallies
to support him
and his family."

He knows what his purpose here on earth is.


Sunday, July 8, 2012


"Not a day has gone by that I have not communicated with my Father in Heaven through prayer. It is a relationship I cherish—one I would literally be lost without. If you do not now have such a relationship with your Father in Heaven, I urge you to work toward that goal. As you do so, you will be entitled to His inspiration and guidance in your life."
               —Thomas S. Monson, "Stand in Holy Places", Liahona and Ensign, November 2011
                                                      Topics: Heavenly Father, Prayer

I read this quote the other day
and it went along with something that I
 while my husband was listening to his scriptures on his iphone.
In 2 Nephi 10 : 20
certain words of this scripture stood out to me,
"...let us remember [God],
and lay aside our sins,
and not hang down our heads,
for we are not cast off...."
I've heard it said that we speak to God through
and that many times He speaks to us
when we read our scriptures.
Sometimes before I say my prayers
I feel like I've been a
disappointment to my Heavenly Father.
One more failed night of not going to bed early,
one more wasted day when I've been irritable and depressed, etc.
I know these are just lies from the adversary,
but sometimes I "buy" into them.

I felt like my Heavenly Father 
was telling me to NOT
hang down my head
thinking He was disappointed in me
and that I was cast off.
I love the a-ha moments where
the Holy Ghost
whispers the exact words that I need to hear.

And with that,
I'm going to bed on time tonight!!

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Positive Thoughts

My Mr.
I was having difficulty trying to add a button to my blog
and my smart husband accomplished this difficult feat (at least it is to me)
in under a minute or so!!

Thanks go to my sister for recommending
Hillary Weeks awesome website about keeping track of how many
positive thoughts deeds one does during a day.
I wanted to share a few of the ideas they suggest of what to click for,
"Anything that lifts, motivates and inspires us to live our potential is clickable!"

  • positive thoughts
  • compliments given and received
  • things to be grateful for
  • smiles given and received
  • i love yous
  • noticing the good in someone
  • noticing the good in a situation
  • noticing the good in yourself
  • things you believe
  • each time you have hope
  • each time you see the hand of God
  • acts of kindness
  • each time you resist temptation
  • each step closer to a goal
  • minutes of exercise
With your spouse

  • compliments given and received
  • things you love about each other
  • i love yous
  • each time you think of your spouse
  • noticing the good in your spouse
  • acts of kindness
  • each time you make each other smile or laugh

With your family
  • acts of service
  • acts of kindness
  • kind words
  • compliments given and received
  • completed chores - homework, making beds, brushing teeth, etc.
  • minutes of reading
  • minutes spent together
  • expressions of gratitude
  • have a contest to see who can click the most in a day or a week

With your friends
  • things you appreciate about each other
  • compliments given and received
  • kind words
  • check in each day to support each other in your clicking goals
  • have a contest to see who can click the most in a day or a week

With your Church group
  • thoughts of the Savior
  • minutes spent reading scripture
  • thoughts of gratitude
  • choose a topic (faith, hope, love...) and click each time you witness it in your life
  • set a goal to reach a certain number of clicks together
  • acts of kindness
In the work place
  • acts of kindness
  • each time customers are serviced
  • going the extra mile
  • each time a goal is seen in action
  • positive words
  • expressions of success

Here's to a lot of clicking!!
I'll post my clicks and see how the number changes.
Thank you, sis!

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

"And now, O my son Helaman, behold, thou art in thy youth, and therefore, I beseech of thee that thou wilt hear my words and learn of me; for I do know that

whosoever shall put their TRUST in GOD 

shall be SUPPORTED
in their trials,
and their troubles,
and their afflictions,
and shall be lifted up at the last day.

And I would not that ye think that I know of myself--not of the temporal but of the spiritual, not of the carnal mind but of God."
Trust HIM
and I will feel supported
in ALL my trials,
and afflictions.

Meet Rod

The following is a link to the website of the 12 Step Addiction Recovery Program.
Click on Rising from Rock Bottom and hear Rod's story. 

I felt inspired
as I heard how Christ has worked in his life
with climbing his
Mt. Everest.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Training for Eternal Exaltation

Today has been a hard day.
I just read this and it put things into perspective.
I think that the hardest trials in our lives are the ones that are long-term...
the ones that test our limits of patience and long-suffering.
"Some might ask when faced with such suffering, how could Almighty God let this happen? And then that seemingly inevitable question, why did this happen to me? Why must we experience disease and events that disable or call precious family members home early or extend their years in pain? Why the heartaches? At these moments we can turn to the great plan of happiness authored by our Heavenly Father. That plan, when presented in the pre-earth life, prompted us all to shout for joy. Put simply, this life is training for eternal exaltation, and that process means tests and trials. It has always been so, and no one is spared."
—Elder Ronald A. Rasband, "Special Lessons", General Conference, Apr. 2012

Friday, May 4, 2012

The Sacrament and a Mighty Change of Heart

This past conference, Elder Robert D. Hales said,
"I testify that the sacrament gives us an opportunity to come to ourselves and experience ‘a mighty change’ of heart—to remember who we are and what we most desire. As we renew the covenant to keep the commandments, we obtain the companionship of the Holy Ghost to lead us back into our Heavenly Father’s presence. No wonder we are commanded to ‘meet together oft to partake of [the] bread and [water]’ and to partake of the sacrament to our souls."
—Elder Robert D. Hales, "Coming to Ourselves: The Sacrament, the Temple, and Sacrifice in Service", General Conference, Apr. 2012
I've been praying for a "mighty change of heart" and for a strong desire to take better care of myself starting with getting enough rest. I had an "Ah-ha" moment when I read this. I never thought of connecting the sacrament with receiving a change of heart. It's only through the help of my Heavenly Father that I can obtain this blessing. Next Sunday while I take the sacrament I will remember the desire and change of heart I am praying for.
I think that I will need this weekly reminder and in the words of Elder Hales,
"No wonder we are commanded to
‘meet together oft to partake of [the] bread and [water]’
and to partake of
the sacrament to our souls."

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Don't wait to be asked

"Call me if you need anything."

How many times have we heard that or said it ourselves?
How many people actually take us up on our offer and call us? I know I have said it but I am trying harder to notice needs of others and do something without waiting to be asked.

I read a really good article the other day about someone who called her sick and bedridden friend and asked simply, "I’ve had you on my mind. I need to spend a few minutes with you to see if I can cheer you up a little. Do you think you could sit up and tolerate company for about 45 minutes?”
What she ended up doing was giving her a manicure and visiting with her.

I like the last paragraph,
"If my friend had called and asked me if there was 'anything she could do' for me, I would have told her no. If she had asked if she could come and give me a manicure, I surely would have refused, thinking it was the last thing I needed or wanted. She said only that she cared and wanted to cheer me up—and she fulfilled that promise by physically touching my hands and spiritually touching my heart."

To read the whole article:

But I don't want to...

I have had a crappy week and haven't felt like blogging.
I want this blog to be a source of encouragementand I don't feel like I have much to
give when I am in a depressive slump.

Someone told me that when I start feeling depressed I need to do something to
combat it instead of trying to hide from it. The longer I wait the harder it is to crawl out of the "slumps."

Yesterday I took my kids on a mommy daughter date to the Pizza Factory and we went shopping afterwards for some clothes for them. I look forward to the future when they beg me to go shopping for a new outfit. I was very surprised that they both seemed to enjoy picking different things out. What I wanted to do was crawl in bed and hide from the world. But today I organized my house even though I really, really didn't want to. And instead of hiding I read to my youngest and gladly accepted a request to help someone with a project. Service helps me forget completely and totally for a few moments about my struggles with this disease.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Lifestyle Changes

I was at my doctor's office
a few years ago
and he told me to stay away from


"Ya Right!!!"

is what I said to him.
He told me that sugar is really
bad for those who are depressed.
I asked him, "Why then do I crave
when I am depressed?"

It seems my body has this defense mechanism
when I feel depressed
where I crave foods such as
or carbs
that gives me a mood "boost."
But I am also really, really irritable.

And THEN...
I crash,
and feel depressed all over again.

So I tried to completely go off sugar
and succeeded for about three weeks.
It's amazing when you try this and
find out that you don't crave those
things anymore.

that approach isn't really practical
is it?

So over the past six months I have learned to replace those refined, over processed and unhealthy sugars with ingredients like:
honey, dark agave, 100% pure maple syrup, sucanat & coconut sugar.
A really good place to read more about why refined sugars are so unhealthy can be found on a blog

So I haven't given up treats, I just buy or make ones that are "healthified."

In order to get well, I have needed to make lifestyle changes which has included my diet. I will write more about this later in a following post. All I have to say is that my mood is so much better. I have more energy and I get depressed less often.

**As a side note: 
(Coconut sugar has a low glycemic index like that of an apple. I buy it from the grocery section on for a decent price and the sucanat I have bought from I buy the agave and maple syrup from Costco or Sam's Club. I buy my honey from beekeepers in my hometown.)

Monday, April 2, 2012

Limitations and Accepting Them

I have had a bunch of
things on my
To DO List
for the past month.
My husband's parents
and siblings,
and my parents 
and my friends,
have been a huge blessing
as they have helped with various things.

My mother-in-law
called me the other day
and asked if I needed help
with the remaining things
on my To Do List.
She had already spent quite a few days
helping me and it was sweet of her to offer to help again.
I told her,

"Actually, I'm done. Even though there are a few things on the list,
I decided that I need to take care of myself
 and so I might do one or two more things
that are necessary
but other than that
I'm not doing anymore."

It felt so good to say that!!
Just to realize that
I can't continue to push
myself at the pace
I was keeping up
over the past couple of weeks
or I would probably trigger a depressive cycle.
I realize that I get stressed out easily
so anything that I can do
to not put unnecessary burdens
or responsibilities on myself is


to being emotionally,
                                                                            & physically


Sunday, April 1, 2012


So I have not been MIA,
let's just say that I have had
an overwhelming increase
in what I call
"Mommy Chores."
 I would start to get really stressed out,
but then I would call one of my friends for help with something
and the stress would
I am so grateful!!!!

My therapist told me that
she didn't think that my current circumstances
and the fact that I had recently told
some close friends of my illness
 were a coincidence.
She told me to ask for help
and I did even though it was hard for me.
I love helping other people
but when it comes to asking for help
I feel like I'm being a bother.

Through my experiences of the past few weeks
I have come to accept and recognize my limitations
which I'll be blogging about tomorrow!

Thursday, March 15, 2012

I read a quote yesterday that comforted me.
I found it in Gerald N. Lund's book called Fire of the Covenant
which is about the Willie and Martin Handcart companies
and the trials and afflictions they faced.
It's by Elder Neil A. Maxwell who said,

"How could we expect to be joyous
and to receive ALL
that 'the Father hath'
if we do not strive to become like Him?
And, in fact, can we,
on our scale,
be like Him
WITHOUT sharing in the 
'fellowship of his sufferings'?
He shares with us His work;
does that not suggest
the need for
our sharing, too,
some of the 

If in all of this there is some
understandable trembling,
the adrenaline of affliction
can help to ensure
that our pace
will be brisk
rather than casual.
His grace 
will cover us like a cloak--
enough to provide for
but too thin
to keep out ALL
the cold.
The seeming cold 
is there to keep us
from drowsiness,
and gospel gladness 
warms us enough 
to keep going."

A little while ago I have a few good weeks in a row
and then seemingly all of sudden
I was depressed.
I was really, really, disappointed.
I had had the feeling that I was finally overcoming
the depression.
But as C.S. Lewis wrote, 
"Our Father [in Heaven] refreshes us on the
journey [through life]
with some pleasant inns,
but [He] will not encourage us
to mistake them for home”
(C. S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain, New York: Macmillan, 1967, p. 103.)

The brief respites and His grace enables us to keep going.

Frequency of Posts

Life's been a little crazy lately and that's why I haven't posted recently.
Plus, I never get on the internet when I'm home by myself and my kids are in school.
And after schook there's homework, dinner, and getting kids ready for bed.
Someone once said that she or her husband don't use the internet unless someone else is in the room.
With all the filth and junk on the internet, this provides a safety net
to keep oneself pure.
I decided that I would do the same to keep myself and my kids safe.
It's like "flying 500 feet above the treeline."
Watch the video below and you'll know what I mean.


As an added side benefit, spending less time in front of the tv and computer
has helped in reducing the frequency of my depression cycles.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Purpose of this blog

The purpose of this blog is to help others
feel comforted and turn towards our SAVIOR

Do you know someone who suffers
from depression?

Do you know someone whose family member
has a mental illness?

Please share this blog with them.

Please know that there is HOPE.

Please know that complete HEALING is possible
only in and through JESUS CHRIST.

Please work with your doctors.

Please see a therapist who will help you understand the mental illness
better and the lifestyle changes that one needs to make
in order to lead a happy, healthy life.

Please reach out and share with someone you
trust what you are going through.

Please don't isolate yourself.
You will need support from
family, friends, doctors,
and especially your SAVIOR.


Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Thank heavens I'm not an idiot...

I was reading a book today called, "The Potter and the Clay."
The author, Reed Moss, writes about his sister Lael who,
after a traumatic brain injury,
 gradually lost her ability to function mentally.
The story is set in the early 1930's
before MRIs and CAT scans even existed.

It is a sad story,
but it makes me grateful to see how far
 society and advancements in modern medicine
have come in treating the mentally ill.

Lael was institutionalized into a state school and one of the questions on the application was,
"...classification as to type of mental deficiency,




answer: moron."

I can just see my husband filling out a question like this
when I had to be in an inpatient program...

I can't help but laugh when I think of it.

Is your wife an idiot, moron, or imbecile?

(I think I'm going to ask him...)

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Step 4 TRUTH

Step 4 TRUTH
KEY PRINCIPLE: Make a searching and fearless
written moral inventory of yourself.

Oh, NO...

I pray that as I start this inventory that I will be able to see things clearly
and not trigger a cycle of depression.
One symptom of depression is excessive self-criticism.
And I tend to do that waaaaayy too much.

My in-laws suggested that I just write down a few things.
I can do that.
So I have written down three things and when
I take care of those
I'll write down some more.
I can handle accomplishing this step
a little at a time.

I'm reminded of the scripture found in The Book of Mormon (you can get your FREE copy here )

2 Nephi 4:17, 18, 19, 20

"...My heart exclaimeth: O bwretched man that I am! Yea, my heart csorroweth because of my flesh; my soul grieveth because of mine iniquities.   I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily abeset me. And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins...."

Even Nephi, a prophet of God, felt "grieved" because of his iniquities.


Rather than 


Nephi says, "...nevertheless, I know in whom I have atrusted.

My God hath been my asupport...."

God helped Nephi through all of his trials and afflictions.
As a faithful, obedient son of God, he was never left alone.

So the past week or so I have been depressed and didn't want to blog while I felt that way.

A week and a half ago I started to second guess myself.
I've told a handful of people about my disease and I felt a little vulnerable.
It's something that I've hid for so long.
When people ask me how I'm doing I usually say, "I'm good,"
instead of "Actually, I feel like crud.
I haven't showered today, exercised,
gotten enough sleep, (or whatever) and nor do I care to."

Mental illness is not like one of those "socially acceptable" diseases
that you can post about on Facebook
or where people bring you dinner.
And, actually, bringing a depressed person something like a meal
enables their behavior and makes their depression worse.
Because it's something that they can and should do for themselves.

So how do you help someone who is depressed?

It's all about being close to the Spirit.
Being able to tell when a friend doesn't seem like
and sending her a little note in the mail,
or calling,
or whatever it is
that you feel prompted to do.
It's about sincerely asking that person,
"How are you honestly doing?"
And caring enough to listen.
It lets the person know that someone actually cares
and is aware that he or she is struggling.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Symptoms of Mania

This is a good "quote" from the National Alliance on Mental Illness website for the symptoms of mania.

What are the symptoms of mania?

Mania is the word that describes the activated phase of bipolar disorder. The symptoms of mania may include:
  • either an elated, happy mood or an irritable, angry, unpleasant mood
  • increased physical and mental activity and energy
  • racing thoughts and flight of ideas
  • increased talking, more rapid speech than normal
  • ambitious, often grandiose plans
  • risk taking
  • impulsive activity such as spending sprees, alcohol abuse
  • decreased sleep without experiencing fatigue

I share this quote to educate those who may not know or understand what mania is.

Symptoms of Depression

This is a good "quote" from the National Alliance on Mental Illness website for the symptoms of depression.

What are the symptoms of depression?

Depression is the other phase of bipolar disorder. The symptoms of depression may include:
  • loss of energy
  • prolonged sadness
  • decreased activity and energy
  • restlessness and irritability
  • inability to concentrate or make decisions
  • increased feelings of worry and anxiety
  • less interest or participation in, and less enjoyment of activities normally enjoyed
  • feelings of guilt and hopelessness
  • thoughts of suicide
  • change in appetite (either eating more or eating less)
  • change in sleep patterns (either sleeping more or sleeping less)

I share this quote to educate those who may not know or understand depression.

When I am depressed I don't necessarily experience ALL of these symptoms,
 but I do experience a good handful.
The degree or intensity of the symptoms varies.

Just because I take medication for my illness doesn't mean I don't get depressed.
It is BECAUSE I follow my doctor's orders
that the severity of my symptoms are lessened and I am better able to manage my illness.

What is bipolar disorder?

According to the National Alliance on Mental Illness website,

"Bipolar disorder, or manic depression, is a medical illness that causes extreme shifts in mood, energy, and functioning. These changes may be subtle or dramatic and typically vary greatly over the course of a person’s life as well as among individuals. Over 10 million people in America have bipolar disorder, and the illness affects men and women equally. Bipolar disorder is a chronic and generally life-long condition with recurring episodes of mania and depression that can last from days to months that often begin in adolescence or early adulthood, and occasionally even in children. Most people generally require some sort of lifelong treatment. While medication is one key element in successful treatment of bipolar disorder, psychotherapy, support, and education about the illness are also essential components of the treatment process."


National Mental Health Association

National Alliance on Mental Illness

National Alliance on Mental Illness—Utah Chapter

Above is a list of websites that can help those diagnosed with mental illnesses and their families. There are classes and support groups available.

Comic Relief

My husband and I went on a date last night to see a famous comedian, and it was actually clean comedy!

No dirty jokes, no crude was GREAT!

This whole past month has just been a lot of emotional upheaval and last night I laughed for about an hour and half straight.
I REALLY needed it!

Humor can heal.

My oldest child was blessed with a good sense of humor and I feel so blessed to be her mother. When she was just 2 months old
I was just holding her when she started to giggle.

So I giggled.

Then she giggled.
And didn't stop giggling.

I love this memory of her.
She has brought laughter, light, and love into our family ever since.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

A wise man once said,


                          is a QUITTER

                                                   TOO LAZY to TRY"

I'm totally going to use this with my kids! And, more importantly...with myself.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

12 Steps Towards Healing

My in-laws served a mission for our church right around the same time that I was experiencing the first of my symptoms of the bipolar disease. They were called to be facilitators for one of the Addiction Recovery Program meetings,12264,2873-1,00.html which are sponsored by LDS (Latter-Day Saint) Family Services to help those who struggle with addictions such as:
  • Alcohol
  • Drugs (both prescription and illegal)
  • Tobacco
  • Coffee and tea
  • Pornography
  • Inappropriate sexual behavior
  • Gambling
  • Codependency
  • Disorders associated with eating
They sent me the workbook that the church uses for the 12 Step Addiction Recovery Program and I know they were inspired to do so. At the time they sent it I was in denial about my diagnosis and I was too angry and proud to go through the workbook. So I set it aside and basically forgot about it.

Eight years later I was sitting at our family computer when I looked over at the bookshelf and saw the workbook. As I glanced through the pages I started crying. It was like I was receiving one on one counsel and admonitions from my Father in Heaven about changes that I needed to make in my life.

While I don't have any addictions,
I was amazed at how well this program applied to my struggles with my illness and I felt that it could help me. You can download a copy of the workbook for free at,11666,8517-1-4751-1,00.html

I have seen how the 12 Step Recovery Program is helping me in my own life and I know that it will help others. For me it is like a road map to recovery and healing.

Each step includes a key principle, action steps, and a section called study and understanding. The last section is filled with scriptures to study and questions to answer and write down. It helps me to better understand how to apply each step to my life.

KEY PRINCIPLE: Admit that you, of yourself, are powerless to overcome your addictions and that your life has become unmanageable.

Step 2 HOPE
KEY PRINCIPLE: Come to believe that the power of God can restore you to complete spiritual health.

Right now I am on: Step 3 TRUST in GOD.
KEY PRINCIPLE: Decide to turn your will and your life over to the care of God the Eternal Father and His Son, Jesus Christ.

I was reading a quote from the Lectures on Faith by our prophet Joseph Smith, Jr.

"Let us here observe, that three things are necessary in order that any rational and intelligent being may exercise faith in God unto life and salvation.

First, the idea that he actually exists.

Secondly, a correct idea of his character, perfections, and attributes.

Thirdly, an actual knowledge that the course of life which he is pursuing is according to his will. For without an acquaintance with these three important facts, the faith of every rational being must be imperfect and unproductive."

As I was reading the second thing that is necessary for faith in God I was struck by the word


Sometimes I struggle with trusting my Father in Heaven and I know that it is connected to some INCORRECT ideas I have of God's character, perfections, and attributes.

When I was in college I used to carry my scriptures everywhere with me.
 They had their own little spot in my backpack. If I was feeling discouraged, homesick, anxious or whatever, I would open my scriptures and read.
 I always felt better after doing so. 

A thought occurred to me the other day that the past few years I have been relying too much on my husband for spiritual support and strength and that I needed to get back into the habit I started when I was a freshman in college...meaning, to more often turn towards God through scripture and prayer when I am feeling depressed.

Through the scriptures I will come to better understand CORRECT ideas of my Father's character, perfections, and attributes.

******Side Note: A copy of where and when the 12 Step Addiction Recovery Meetings are in your hometown...,12169,2128-1,00.html